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Saturday, December 5th, 2009

Word has come through the grape vine that there are family members of mine reading this site and not fully understanding the purpose or me. I’m not surprised, that is the story of my life.

The purpose is that the needs of the many outweigh the needs of the few or the one. As stated in the headline of this site, I’m documenting what works and what doesn’t. If nothing else people can learn from my mistakes.

When I started on this project the objective was to document the road. I knew there were times where I would lose my mind and that it would be one big roller coaster. I knew that different aspects of self would come forth and I wanted to document the compelxity of the human machine as I went through the divorce in the hopes that it would provide sufficient knowledge for others to not traverse this path, to avoid this pain, and to save their own marriages. I knew I would contradict myself over and over and wanted to catch myself in the act so as to find TRUTH!

I’ve learned more in 2 years than I learned in my previous 25 or more; however, I am now turning this blog private to avoid inflicting further harm. I’m now reaching a point in my growth where I realize that what I write can have a damaging effect on unprepared minds and I still have so much left to learn so I could inadvertently damage someone. Sorry, I’m not trying to insult, but just stating reality. There is a karma involved here and one I should have repented of some time ago. I’m repenting now.

At present, I believe we have about 20 marriages saved as a result of this effort. When I started this project, I figured if 1 (one) could be saved – it was worth doing. I never thought, that I would be attempting to save my own again, but such is life.

Some of the things I wrote early on invited MAJOR testing into my life. I’m now repenting of that and hoping that GRACE may kick in.

I will continue to write this as a private blog and those regular readers are more than welcome to register and get an account or whatever.

I shall refer to the “forces above” as God. You may call it Yahweh, Jehovah, Allah, Jesus, Cosmic Buddha, Nature’s God, the Force, Krishna, or Bob – whatever floats your fancy, I’ll just call it God below. It is much more complex than that, and yet paradoxically simple.

I have made an exhaustive study of most of the major world religions and have determined the following based on my own efforts, experiences, and reading approximately 30,000 pages of religious texts, books, and commentary, and more GRACE than I could ever imagine would be shown an arrogant guy like me.

These are the lessons I have learned:

  • Don’t take ANYONE’s word for it! Don’t drink anyone’s kool-aid, without testing and proving for yourself! Oh so noble Berians I think! The truth is IN YOU! You just have to seek and umm clean up your life!
  • The scriptures are multi-dimensional and packed with gobs upon gobs of information like unwinding a DNA helix coil. However, they are also like a jump starter for what is already inside you! Study thine own sexual organs to understand! Study thine own body, thine own household, thine own conditions for growing up, etc. Ask questions from above and the answers will be given at your stage of development! It changes (next bullet).
  • Whatever you think you know, will be changed as you grow. That applies to what I have written below! Be smart enough to realize that you are a changing developing creature that changes into a variety of personas depending upon the external circumstances.
  • All scriptures and channeled writings seem to say more or less the same thing. Most of the deep stuff his hidden from the masses and it is apparently by design. It has been this way since times of old – all the way back to Egypt at least. The priests, churches, political organizations, mother, father, and job, etc. have kept this from you. I’m not saying priests are bad – just that after a certain point you don’t need that any more! I’m not saying not to have a job! You grow by interacting with people – not by sitting in a cave!
  • Religions possess only a fragment of the overall picture. This is by design apparently.
  • Christianity today is not what it was prior to being taken over by Constantine’s Pagan Rome, and virtually no one in the modern Christian system wants to admit this for fear of alienating people. Massive group think. Anyone willing to do just a little research can prove this for themselves. The path is actually much harder, but people weren’t ready for it so it was watered down by the very hand of God, until people would be ready.
  • There are Laws that govern how this place works and how your mind works and your mind and this place are intrinsically linked like some sort of feedback loop that provides custom test scenarios and development paths for you!
  • The very words you speak invite tests and blessings into your life. You judge someone and you will likely become that which you judge if not in this life, perhaps the next. This is not reincarnation. It is way more complicated than that, but you’d have to understand DNA, quantum mechanics, and various spiritual theories / soul-science. It is all in the scriptures, but is hidden from your view until you are ready!
  • God has two sides. One is the left, the other is the right. The left likes to mess with people’s heads a lot. Lucifer means “light bringer” – in other words, when you get tired of the darknesss, hopefully you will come to the light. There is purpose in all of it. The right will protect and start helping you when you are ready to start taking your spiritual stuff seriously with everything you do. That means how you treat your wife and children most importantly! That is the most important “spiritual” thing you can do! Meditation and all that other stuff is nice, but is a tool and is nothing compared to the growth one can have through one’s wife!
  • God will provide whatever illusions you need to get you further along in development. You believe in 8 armed elephants with purple eyes? Guess what, that is what God will appear to you as.
  • All of life is one big test and training ground.
  • Marriage is an allusion to higher things and represents the cosmic forces of God and serves as a model in how EVERYTHING works!
  • Some marriages are supposed to end
  • Some marrages are a result of karma and people not learning and growing up spiritually. They keep bouncing from abuser to abusee life to life. The only way out of such karma loops is to do as Jesus said and forgive!
  • Soul mates are out there, but it takes lifetimes to develop into that. So stop divorcing and breaking up families because you think its not your soul mate. Sometimes you marry someone in one life and only get a brief glimpse of your soul mate because this life is not the time just yet!
  • There are different kinds of prayer. Some are healing, others are using emotion. Without emotion, it is pretty well worthless
    Visualize and do positive affirmations. It needs to be something you can actually believe in or it won’t happen – baby steps or have faith like crazy!
  • If you have “race mind” then meditation, sunshine, exercise, nature, fasting, and healthy diet, etc. can help you get those thoughts under control. Each person is unique as far as what their body needs. I went vegetarian and never looked back, but that may have been part of my “life plan” to do that. Do things in stages as you explore.
  • Most of your life is like a piano in that it was already planned out. You just need to play it to create a beautiful tune or create a funeral song. There are lessons you were scheduled to learn – look back on your life to figure out what they are. Look for the repeating patterns, your birth conditions, home life, etc.
  • If you wife is going crazy guys, it is because she either had too many male partners and is picking up their vibe still, or it is generally something you are doing or have inside you that you don’t even know about. There could be other reasons – it may be part of your life plan to go through a separation or something.
  • Serve your wife! Serve her! Serve her! Treat her like the queen and she will respond in time. Dig deep down inside of yourself and find your lost children and get them healed and you will heal her as well! She is YOUR reflection!
  • There is more and I may update this post, but am turning the rest of this blog private.

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    Apology Accepted

    Saturday, October 31st, 2009

    Thanks Heavenlies.

    She called me this morning to apologize for something that happened last night. It was first thing in the morning about 8ish. She’s NEVER done that. I know it may not mean anything. I know I know. Still though, my jaw dropped. She apologized – unprompted. What in the world is going on with her? I’m so used to her having an icy demeanor that it is weirding me out a little.

    She also invited me in to her house when I picked the kids up this last time. I got to use her restroom again.

    I’ve been practicing being mindful of my thoughts as much as I can remember lately. I’ll have a resentment come up and if I catch it in time, I’ll do some self-talk and say over and over “I forgive myself. I forgive her. I am growing closer to God.” or very similar affirmations. Another thing is trying to work on the positive self-programming.

    This is harder. One has to face “reality” on some things, yet the words one chooses can make all the difference in the world in terms of how one views things. An unpleasant situation can be flipped into a test or viewed as an opportunity for growth,etc. Easier said than done, but baby steps.

    Today is the 2 year anniversary since she moved out.

    Happy halloween sweetheart. Wish you were here with me and the kids – together at last. Love you still.

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    The Dark Side of Oz

    Wednesday, September 16th, 2009

    I had always heard about the “Dark Size of Oz”. The idea being that the Wizard of Oz movie is synced to Pink Floyd’s Dark Side of the Moon album. It seems like it actually is. As I watched this, I found myself “looking” for syncros within the movie, but then there were times where they were real vs. perceived. I suspect that the same occurs in life.

    I got a note from my lawyer that was from her lawyer asking the court to keep the case on the docket. It was going to be “dropped” since my wife hadn’t paid her attorney or something like that. Apparently her lawyer has decided to press on with this. It looks like we may be about 30 days away or so from the paperwork being finalized.

    Other things in the news. I saw a car with 333 on it as I entered work, then leaving I saw two. One was in front of me and the other came from behind me and was right along side the other one.

    I went for a walk at lunch and saw one.

    There I am staring at two license plates. One says 333 – ???, and the other lane has another one ?!? – 333.

    The last time this happened was back in May. What’s up with the threes, yo?

    I’m planning to go back to my notes from May and see what happened at that time – perhaps something new is manifesting in my life?

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    Go Gophers!

    Monday, August 3rd, 2009

    I can’t really speak openly about this part until perhaps one day I get to tell the whole story. For now this has been password protected.

    Supposedly our case is going to go to a state called “null processed” in a few weeks if my wife doesn’t pay her legal bills. When asked if she was going to borrow some money to take care of this – she said no, she’s not going to do that. In addition, she recently told our daughter twice now, that it was going to take some time for her to return home.

    She also seems to think that I may be dating and is getting jealous. This last weekend I went to Las Vegas for example and she thought I may have taken another woman with me.

    Steady as she goes.

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    Dad

    Monday, July 20th, 2009

    My dad has decided to fix the country (italics below). Here is his plan. If my site gets shutdown, it is because I sold out to ExxonMobil. Maybe I’ll find out what happened to all those other guys who invented the 100 MPG carburetor.

    SOME SUGGESTIONS FOR FIXING AMERICA THE BEAUTIFUL:

    (1). Abolish the IRS and all job taxes. This bureaucracy is punitive, outdated expensive, and cumbersome.

    (2). Implement a consumer based sales tax.

    (3). Bring the troops home and build a sentry station on every mile of the Mexican and Canadian borders. Man these stations with the troops.

    (4). Stress test government VA, balancing SSI, Medicare, and Medicaid before socializing healthcare. Let them clean their own house first. Remove the SSI and FICA taxes from the General Fund…no more IOUs.

    (5). Start a Manhattan Project for the synthetic replacement of oil. Have Nobel Prize winners chair it from different disciplines: energy, geology, chemical engineering, banking, journalism, and others.

    (6) Legalize drugs. We have made almost no headway in the “War on Drugs”, except that we now have guerrilla warfare on our southern border. Stop this stupid expensive war, tax and regulate the suppliers, and use the money saved for prevention, treatment, and rehab.

    (7) Shift healthcare from intervention to prevention. If national healthcare is needed, a solemn attempt at establishing clinics instead of primary care should first be tried. Go to the source.

    (8). Limit the terms of Senators and Congress. 3 apiece max. How someone like Edward Kennedy could spend their whole life as a Senator borders on royalty. That is absurd.

    Seriously, my theory is that all these economic hard times and such are going to FORCE people to start acting like a family and such. Some kind of wacky blessing in disguise.

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    Doing the Karma Twist

    Wednesday, June 17th, 2009

    Well, really this started with World War II and women leaving the home and entering the work force. Well really we could go back to World War I then since it helped precipitate WWII. Well really we could go back the to ……… you get the idea. History repeats itself and causes are triggered.

    Make no mistake, I’m not supporting the idea of “pregnant and barefoot” and a woman being lorded over by her husband, but it does seem like we’re missing quite a bit now a days. Perhaps in due time the way this place works will make a course correction. God willing, maybe my marriage will be one of the ones to help turn us back in the other direction at least. During the pregnant and barefoot era I’ve read that average time till orgasm was about 2 minutes with the female rarely experiencing this thing hard-wired in us to want to make babies. It is now up to 20 minutes or so I’ve read. Women are able to do many more things and have many more choices available as well; however, it seems that the “fem-nazis” as they are referred to in some circles, may have helped raise up an unanticipated consequence. It all started with WWII. Right.

    Anyway here is the article. Gives you some thing to think about anyway.

    Quoting the online article at http://www.wnd.com/index.php?fa=PAGE.view&pageId=101344 (6 hits):

    The National Bureau of Economic Research released a study to be published soon in the American Economic Journal that shows women’s happiness has measurably declined since 1970. It’s no surprise that this has stimulated much comment.

    This study covers the same time period as the rise of the so-called women’s liberation or feminist movement. The correlation demands an explanation. You can read the entire study at the Eagle Forum website.

    One theory advanced by the authors, University of Pennsylvania economists Betsey Stevenson and Justin Wolfers, is that the women’s liberation movement “raised women’s expectations” (sold them a bill of goods), making them feel inadequate when they fail to have it all. A second theory is that the demands on women who are both mothers and jobholders in the labor force are overwhelming.

    I’m neither an economist nor a psychologist, but I’ll join the conversation with my own armchair analysis. Another theory could be that the feminist movement taught women to see themselves as victims of an oppressive patriarchy in which their true worth will never be recognized and any success is beyond their reach.

    What has been the impact of feminism on the nation? Don’t miss “The War on Fathers: How the ‘feminization of America’ destroys boys, men – and women”

    Feminist organizations such as the National Organization for Women held consciousness-raising sessions where they exchanged tales of how badly some man had treated them. Grievances are like flowers – if you water them, they will grow, and self-imposed victimhood is not a recipe for happiness.

    Another theory could be the increase in easy divorce and illegitimacy (now 40 percent of American births are to single moms), which means that millions of women are raising kids without a husband and therefore expect Big Brother government to substitute as provider. The 2008 election returns showed that 70 percent of unmarried women voted for Barack Obama, perhaps hoping to be beneficiaries of his “spread the wealth” policies.

    In the pre-1970 era, when surveys showed women with higher levels of happiness, most men held jobs that enabled their wives to be fulltime homemakers. The private enterprise system constantly produces goods that make household work and kiddie care easier (such as dryers, dishwashers and paper diapers).

    Betty Friedan started the feminist movement in the late 1960s with her book “The Feminine Mystique,” which created the myth that suburban housewives were suffering from “a sense of dissatisfaction” with their alleged-to-be-boring lives. To liberate women from the home that Friedan labeled “a comfortable concentration camp,” the feminist movement worked tirelessly to make the role of fulltime homemaker socially disdained.

    Economic need played no role in the feminist argument that marriage is archaic and oppressive to women. A job in the labor force was upheld as so much more fulfilling than tending babies and preparing dinner for a hard-working husband.

    Women’s studies courses require students to accept as an article of faith the silly notion that gender differences are not natural or biological but are social constructs created by the patriarchy and ancient stereotypes. This leads feminists to seek legislative corrections for problems that don’t exist.

    Want to read more then go to http://www.wnd.com/index.php?fa=PAGE.view&pageId=101344 (6 hits).

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    Kitchen Sink

    Tuesday, June 16th, 2009

    I’ve been trying to ramp up my lucid dreaming / out of body experiences / meditation. I tried a new herb called “Holy Basil” coupled with spinach for dinner, Vitamin B supplements, electric massager, Brainwave Mind Studios Volume II, fruits and vegetables throughout the day (very limited eating out), Valerian root supplement, etc. Although I had dreams last night, and remembered them, I was too lazy to get up and write them down. They weren’t excessively vivid though.I woke up around 5:47 this morning feeling relatively rested and decided to pray for what’s left of my marriage and my family. I prayed protection around her phone, her mind, her car, the kids, and the house where she resides at present.

    I then got up and got rid of my water intake from the night before. I decided to lay down on the floor with a guided meditation track. I used the one from Kelly Howell called Universal Mind Meditation. Started with my breathing exercises and after about 20 minutes I started fading in and out again. During this phase I saw a mental image of gallon of distilled water – upside down. A bit later I saw another mental image (as though it were in my field of vision) of a glass of water being filled. I’m not sure what to make of those images.

    I woke up briefly and rolled over onto my side almost in fetal position. It felt so comfortable. I could just lay like that for a long time. I then dozed off and started fading in and out. I realized my head was on top of a book and I started reading the book. I thought to myself, this is weird – I am dreaming, but there is sufficient resolution in the dream for me to read out of a book. Cool. I keep flipping pages, but they weren’t real pages. It was as though my mind was “seeing through” the pages and I was able to read without turning the pages by adjusting the level of transparency in each previous page or by adjusting the depth of my apparently see through vision.

    I then got up sort of groggy. I didn’t see my body on the floor so I figured I was really awake. I turned to get up and peeked out the door to make sure no one was in the living room (I have a room-mate now). I was going to walk through really quick like and get a glass of water yet I was still naked as the day I was born, so I was sort of sneaking about all tip toe style.

    I walked into the kitchen and thought, you know – “it sure is light in here. What’s with the lights being on?”. As I was contemplating this, I thought to myself “Perhaps I am still dreaming?”. “Let’s test this” I thought. I thought to myself “I need to get outside and see if I can find a license plate number or something to recall when I wake up, if I am dreaming. Well, I don’t know how much time I have. Let’s try to fly. If I can fly, then I am probably still dreaming.”

    I jumped up and much to my delight and slight embarrassment my naked body is now soaring over the kitchen sink. As I made it over the counter, I went into what I now call “the white zone” where I knew I was still dreaming, yet was awake. This happened once before. It feels sort of like the static on a television with no actual signal being received.

    Perhaps this is the narrow path that Yeshua spoke of. Straddling the point between conscious and subconscious, though I’m not really sure.

    Some have informed me about the middle when performing breath exercises. It makes me wonder if it is similar when going between awake/dream state.

    It was very difficult to maintain this state and I woke up.

    I had been practicing rather attempting various “higher” thought forms over the last couple days and attempting to be more aware, but the scenario for this dream seemed to be driven once again by feeling lethargic as I dozed in and out. The lethargic / comfortable feeling seems to be driven by the right amount of heat, coupled with perhaps time of day, spinach, and binaural tracks. One more thing to note, when I woke up at 5:47 AM – I was very very hungry. They say that less energy is wasted on digestion provides more energy for spiritual/mind movements.

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    H-Hour

    Tuesday, March 31st, 2009

    Well, almost time to face the music. I’m going to go pray and meditate for a few minutes to clear out the adrenaline currently dumping into my blood stream.

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    The Resistance Mechanism

    Thursday, March 5th, 2009

    The video posted here could be disturbing for some, but I think that by virtue of the extreme nature – it helped me to see certain truths as part of a relationship rescue operation.

    I certainly hope I never became “Old Greg” as in the film above; however, any one going through a heart break can probably relate on some level. This is not why I bring the movie up though. A friend of mine had asked me for some time to watch this movie as he thought I would use it to connect with my situation not unlike the fireproof movie I had mentioned a few posts back. What is interesting though, is that there was a part of my mind that had a strange aversion to simply watching this movie. It took me 9 months to actually bring myself to watch it. I suppose it had been built up too much since my friend reported it to be insanely funny. I thought it was mildly funny.

    I call this aspect of my mind – the resistance mechanism.

    My wife has it as well, but that is another story. I suppose we all do.

    The resistance mechanism. Some things are timeless.

    Today though, this scripture jumped out at me

    Paul writes:

    Rom 8:7 because the mind of the flesh is enmity against God; for it is not subject to the law of God, neither indeed can it be:
    Rom 8:8 and they that are in the flesh cannot please God.

    This describes the ego I suspect. Paul just had a different way of saying it. The ego wants to be selfish sometimes, yet it needs to express.

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    A Streetcar named Desiree

    Saturday, November 15th, 2008

    Depression is an interesting state of mind. Normally when I’m not fighting for marriage, it probably happens to me about once or twice a year for a day or so, but when I do slip into it – I wonder how is it possible to not break out of it. There are some poor folks that get trapped into it and can’t break out of that mode of thought. I feel for them. I consider it somewhat similar to trying to lose weight that you have never been able to lose or quitting smoking. It is not always as easy as it may appear on the surface.

    My wife came by yesterday for the first time since March of 08 and wasn’t looking to get some of her stuff this time. I sensed that she wanted to talk – yet was sort of putting her toe in the bathwater to see if it was cold or not.

    It was amazing the difference in her attitude when compared to the last 8 or 9 months. She had gotten terminated recently and her once very haughty I’m in control of my life tone from not even a month ago seems to have adjusted a bit. It reminded me of the same pattern she had done in high-school when we had broken up then. History tends to repeat itself in this life until we learn our lessosn I guess. That means me too, so relax.

    I expect that the game of life includes little tests at each point – though we are often unaware of the test being taken. This is not to suggest that it is in the balance of going to hell or something, but rather seeking opportunities for growth desires to spiritually manifest. Opportunities to watch new paths unfold. Perhaps one can pray for opportunities.

    As I have resolved to make myself into a bettter person, I notice that prayers get answered much more often. I’m still waiting on that big one of bringing my wife home in a nice bow tied package; however, many others have been answered. What I have noticed is that there seem to be tests along the way during some stages of our growth. Perhaps it is a probationary period designed to evaluate whether you are truly ready to love you neighbor as yourself and God with all your heart, soul, and mind. I suspect that loving God with all your heart, soul, and mind is actually loving your neighbor – quite similar to Isaiah 58.

    Regardless of theological speculation, it is clear that has human beings – regardless of one’s faith – such goals are noble and worth pursuing. As part of the procees I think I have now gotten to the stage where I am to perceive the “tests” as they come to some degree. The following story may provide some perspective on a situation where I think I may have been tested.

    I put this story out there, not for a pat on my own back – but to illustrate how things can work in what I believe would be an opening of doors so often described by Jesus. I have yet to get into any inner realms or spoken to beings of light as described in near death experiences, but I have seen some rather cool things happening after simply following intuition. My sense of intuition is still very limited, but I am trying to develop it each day.

    So… after all the build up, the following is an example of movements of what I can only call “the force” or the Lord!

    Yesterday, it was very strong on my heart to clean up the house. The kids had left their rooms in a mess the last time they were over and I hadn’t had a chance to clean up. Well, I had a gut instinct / vibe to clean and followed it.

    Awhile later, someone called and was asking me to loan them money to have their electricity turned back on. I sensed a test or perhaps an opportunity for unfoldment of new paths in this thing I call my life. It was clear as day this time – here is a door, do you want to open it and see what happens? I measured and evaluated the risk, measured my heart, the tone in my friend’s voice, the amount of cash, etc. and then elected… to say.. Okay. He said he would pay me back by next Wednesday.

    Cool. Simultaneously or very near to this time, my wife is coming back to her mother’s home. She tells her mother that she would like to take the kids this time. Due to the situation my wife has been hesitant to come by herself and instead had let her mother perform this function. This is the first time in 3 months she will have brought the kids herself. Something got placed on her heart I guess and she followed it.

    As she arrives, I sensed something. Remorse with a tinge of depression mixed in. She is still smiling though. Remorse. Just in as much as one can slice through a room with a lot of tension with a butter knife, I can feel this remorse in her – yet the pride is still in control a bit. I must double up my prayer efforts and double my efforts to be a better man and hopefully husband I think to myself.

    I had left the door open to the house and tried to give my wife space. She is very sensitive at the moment and I’m trying to respect the vibe. It is awkward – yet pleasant. I miss her so much.

    At the behest of my daughter, the wife comes inside the house. She is then given a tour of the room’s belonging to both children. They just happened to be clean.

    To put this into perspective – according to marriage restoration literature – one must keep one’s domicile clean in the event that one’s estranged spouse should stop by for an “inspection”. I don’t know why they do this, but it is very clearly documented as a part of the pattern and mindset of an estranged spouse when one spouse is still standing for the marriage. I think it makes sense given the estranged spouse’s present state of mind.

    They are struggling with all sorts of forces internally including guilt, denial, anger, and in a sense perhaps even feeling lost. Often they have left – looking for something and not knowing what that something is.. as they get out into the big wide world they may find that it is not what they were looking for. Yet here it is, the family – staring them right in the face and they choose to ignore it. I parallel this with quitting smoking. One’s desire to quit may be there; however, the action has not yet followed. Time. The right conditions perhaps. A catalyst if one is aware enough to seek out one, can help such an event to occur . and then.. eleminate the desire.

    Desire. I have found that if one has to use one’s will, then becoming a better person and growing spiritually will often be met in a sort of saw tooth pattern. Two steps forward and one back perhaps. However, if one can understand why one has certain desires – really dive into the emotion behind them, the deep seated reasoning. The areas that you don’t talk about at cock-tail parties, then perhaps some work can be done.

    I could sense in the wife desires balanced with guilt and shame. All I could do was attempt to minimize her shame and encourage her with what I felt her mind would accept at this time. I told her “You look nice.” She responded – “Thank you.” and she left a bit later.

    As she left, the wind blew the door shut. I thought… how ironic.

    Yet – she came back in for a second time. She inquired if I had received an email from her because she had made a new account. I responded no. I asked if she would like to write it down. Yes. She writes it down. As she is leaving, she has to have seen the lavendar evenelope containing a card on the kitchen counter next to the exit. It had her name on it.

    I wonder to myself – “Did she think about asking about the card?” The contents within are as mysterious as what is in my wife’s heart at the moment.

    A couple weeks ago, I was getting to the point of giving up on her and moving on with my life. I had prayed for the emotions to be reinvigorated so I could stand longer for the marriage. I had thought about going through old pictures. The Lord or the force, whatever you want to call it, delivered something with one more dimension than pictures of my wife and family. I said “Thank-you” to all that is above.

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