Glass Gloves

Well, last night I happened to have perhaps the 6th or 7th lucid dream / out of body experience my whole life.

It didn’t last very long maybe 20 - 30 seconds at best. When my wife and I used to lay in bed together, occassionally I would startle her in my sleep because I would almost scare myself and jump a bit while laying in bed. Sort of like waking up and going… what the heck was that all about?

I’ve read up on this phenomonen some more and have discovered that it has something to do with the out of body experiences we may have while we are dreaming, yet as we “reenter” our bodies from the spiritual plane / astral plane or whatever the modern terms are for it, we come back with a rough landing sometimes and thus startle our physical bodies.  The challenge is in getting our spiritual side to implant the memories into our concious fleshy side. Anyway, it wasn’t all that fun.. I only managed to make it to my bedroom door before I awoke. I was planning to go look at some observable phenomoneon such as the license plate of my neighbors car to verify whether or not I could record things real time, or whether it was simply a creation of my mind. Unfortunately, the “trip” expired rather quickly. Everything was sort of a greyish blue in color which I found interesting.

Lucid dreams you say? Yeah, look it up on google. Have fun, don’t forget to wear a life vest. Still confused? Well, just ask yourself… where exactly is your conciousness stored?

Other items in the news, monkeys are now able to control a robotic arm using electrical implants into their brains. Sounds like a topic for a good song perhaps. Can’t wait to have some wireless internet chip embedded in my head, but I suppose I will have to wait until version 2.00 to make sure there are no bugs. Can you imagine the level of testing required for something like this? I read somewhere that the space shuttle took forever to have 80386 computers designed back in the 80s on board due to the level of testing required. Even if the chips were good to go, it would take 50 years before they’d be ready for implantation after being certified by the Federal Brainwave Commission I suppose. Imagine all the laws that will have to be passed after we start to tap into the other 90% of our brains not being used. No spying on your neighbors mind while they are in the shower. I guess that’s why such gifts are so sparingly distributed throughout humanity. Could you imagine what would happen to our world with all the stuff that goes on if we were actually more aware of what we are capable of? Reminds me of the recent Indiana Jones flick perhaps.

This does bare startling implications for research into the whole idea that thought, time, space are all related… Sound nuts?  Come on man.. I know that you’ve at least once experienced something from out of this physical world, that you perhaps kept to yourself for fear of being labeled looney tunes. Human beings were not meant to sit in a cube from 9-5 every day under gloomy flourescent lights, yet what are we going to do about it - we’re just trying to feed our kids and have enough energy left to watch football maybe.

Look around you man… explore the world you are living in at this very second and just observe….

neutron, electron, proton…..position, velocity, acceleration… male, female, child?…. solid, liquid, gas?   length, width, volume?  Each of these posessing a 4th quality / dimension of union? What is it that brings about that union?

Ever delved into the intricacies of quantum mechanics? It is freaky… almost as though particles know that they are being watched and then behave differently. Reminds me of me sometimes. 

The penis…. what an amazing appendage… simultaneously responsible for expelling waste from the body and the creation of a new physical life… though it sure does look kinda funny if you’ve ever truly thought about it. Reminds me of an old joke about God giving every man a toy from birth. Too bad it didn’t include blinking lights or something or we’d never get anything done around here.

I’ve read about recent genetic manipulation of monkeys to include various “light bearing” genes from stuff like luminescent jellyfish. This will be really wild whenever they come out with pills that you take to genetically modify the penis to literally glow in the dark instead of using glow in the dark condoms purchased in dingy convenience store bathrooms for the amazingly low price of 75 cents. I can honestly say that no I never purchased one of those, so relax tough guy.

All this from a 20 second dream.

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She let me keep the other two kids this weekend for which I was very thankful.

On the way to my grandma and grandpas I found myself asking God if this is what I was really called to do… did He ask me to do this? I turned on the radio.  On the radio was this woman retelling the story of how she had lost her husband.  It was during the shuttle accident that had exploded over Texas a few years ago. She recalled telling her Dad about their marriage problems and how her Dad had encouraged her to just wait it out and to stick by the marriage no matter what happens. After the shuttle accident, she said that they had found a picture of her and her husband together in the wreckage. A miracle at that.
I had turned off the radio for awhile and started listening to my iPod. I found myself troubled again a bit later. Is this really what you have called me to do? Turned on the radio and there it was again …. but this time it seemed more direct. ANSWER THE CALL. ANSWER THE CALL…. it was an old broadcast from Chuck Schwindall.
Last night was a long night. I was restless and couldn’t sleep. I laid in bed - praying - crying with unintelligible murmurs. My cheeks started hurting I cried so hard and long. My jaw tensed up from the pain. I cried out to God again - asking for him to give me some hope to keep going and standing for my marriage. Hope keeps faith alive. I prayed for her, my mother in law, the kids, and some of my other relatives. I prayed for more hope.
I was strongly tempted to send her an email message. I asked for permission and then had opened my Bible to Jeremiah 29:24 ish… it jumped out at me. Page 1222 it was. Trying to be still and wait so that He gets the glory - not me. I had many dreams last night and by the time I woke up i remembered bits and pieces. They were intense though. I was in the deep end of a pond trying to climb out via a mud covered terrace. My whole body was submerged in the deep part of the water. I was nervous that there were snakes in the pond. I dug my elbows and hands into the mud to escape the water and snakes. As I came to the top of the hill I found houses built on top of it. They were relatively small houses, but were expensive. One of them was partially complete and the owner told me that it had cost 140,000,000 to build. It had a steel frame. I pondered building my own house on this hill due to the cost. I remember a clay pot in the form of a toad or a frog with a bit of a Southwest motif to it.

I went to bed and woke up later the next morning. As I checked my messages, Hope had arrived. Another gentleman from this site told me that he had been through almost two years of hell and his wife had finally fallen in love with him again - by her words. God DOES Heal Hurting marriages is my new replacement for eye of the tiger!. Keep Hope alive.

As I was sitting there though - I started to ask… when is she coming home? How long shall I wait? I had asked this several times… went out to help my uncle move some dirt around for his garden. Drove the all terrain vehicle with the kids while we were on the farm. Then it occurred to me to look up. I saw three birds on a power cable. Two of them moved closer together…. the third one flew away. Hope. I see little signs of hope everywhere I look it seems.

Later on I went to sit down again and kept asking… when? When?. Then I saw a little book that the kids had been playing with. It was about Beth Moore. I opened it up.. the whole book was about waiting for God - expectantly - with Hope and in faith!

So I decided to take a walk. To be alone with God. I walked towards the bottom land of the farm. I felt drawn to turn and look and saw two buzzards sitting on a chimney. They were on top of an old broken down house as is common on some farms in Texas. One of the birds defecated on the chimney. The other flew towards the other so slightly. I just watched them for about 5 minutes. Never thought I would see the beauty in something as nasty as a buzzard and it was sort of poetic too. Something that cleans up garbage from the land sitting on top of a broken house.

The two birds picked up and flew off together. i continued to walk towards the bottom land. Just feeling the wind blow - the peace from the sun, and then I turned and looked and saw - two buzzards sitting on the ground. In sort of what appeared to be a courtship pattern. They picked up to fly. I watched them struggle under their own power to fly. Flapping their wings to get aloft. Reminds me of me over the last two or three months trying to reach my wife. Then suddenly the wind picked up and I watched how the buzzards get into the air. I had never seen this before. They started an upward spiral…. using just the wind. They barely moved their wings at all. They just went in circles up and up and up. They flew directly over me for about 10 minutes. I just stared in awe at them. What beauty in even such deathly creatures.

Before long they were so high that I could no longer see them. I finished my Beth Moore book. Wait expectantly. Hope. My prayers answered yet again.

How great and mighty is our God.

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Bob is a nice guy, but…..

Why do we always include the “but” with the phrase, He’s a nice guy?

There is always the but. I imagine soon I will become the butt of many jokes as I stand for my marriage. Supporters are dropping like flys. Some say - you are a better man than me - but …… I can see the head shaking in their head. Thinking to themselves - “Man this guy is in serious denial”.
I had a dream last night. It was somewhat chaotic. She was getting very bad advice from two individuals I used to party with a bit way back in the day - one of which I barely knew, but was about 20 times as wild as I was in my younger days. The other guy got a nice stay in prison for inpersonating an officer at one point. We had gone into and out of a couple of parties and at one point found ourselves in Dallas sort of passing each other - she was happy, longing, but at a bit of distance.

Somehow we wound up talking at a large chain link fence. My second best friend had advised her that the persons she was talking to were bad news since she wouldn’t believe me. He was on one side of the fence. I  and the wife were on the other side.
Later somehow after that we talked abit.

She said - I love you, but no hugs for now. I need more time.  I said okay.

She had bought a brand new Cadillac - silver. Pretty sweet ride. She then asked me to drive her Cadillac. There was something significant left on the dash after I drove the vehicle, but I can’t remember what it was. I guess there’s the but.

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In reference to the-3-hour-miracle-that-saved-our-marriage.

I had debated sharing this for a year now. I had written down in my journal last year, but thought it would provide some context around some of the things that have been occurring recently. - Shohn

I think first you need to know that my parents were helping Shohn try to take my kids from me and my sister was telling me one thing and then telling Shohn another. I also want to make clear that I don’t dream. Scientifically yes we all dream, but I don’t ever recall mine at all.

In this dream I was teaching school, and the bell rung. School was dismissing and I went to get my younger 2 kids (___ 3 and ____ 1), and bring them to my classroom. In the process I was also trying to find my older 2 kids (_____ 10 and ____ 7). So I took the younger 2 to my classroom and left them with my aid so I could find my older 2. I was looking around and I finally found them playing in the gym. We started walking back to my class and this strange red car had drove by. This is a vehicle that I didn’t recognize, and saw the passengers were my parents, Shohn, and the 2 babies. I ran to the classroom and looked and they were gone. I tried to hide my older 2 kids, and put them in a safe place and told them not to move. I went to get the my babies back, but I couldn’t find them or the car.

I noticed headed back to the classroom the red car and inside were my older 2 kids as well. As the car was driving off my father yelled out the window, ” You are not in any mental condition to raise these kid or take care of myself, and you never will be. You will never see your kids again!”

I was standing there crying in disbelief that this car was driving off with all four of my children, my soon to be ex-husband, and both my own parents. I was in shock and didn’t know what to do, then out of nowhere my grandfather comes to me with a check for 140, 000.00. I stood there not knowing what to do. He said this is for my troubles and the kids will be fine. I clasped to the ground crying and scared, then I woke up upset and scared.

When Shohn came home the first thing I told him was I had a really bad dream and it scared me. Then he showed me the journal and what he had written. I stood there confused, and thinking there had to be a logical explanation for all of this. I didn’t want to accept the fact that this was God’s hand at work. So, I came to the conclusion that it meant that I was suppose to be all alone and not have anyone in my life. That was my realization at that time. So, we all got ready for church and left.

It wasn’t until a few days later that it actually hit me that it was a miracle. Sitting there in Jerry’s office and talking about the many different types of miracles that it opened my heart to accept it. It was a difficult struggle within myself to realize and accept what had happened. The truth is I had lost my faith and Jerry had helped me find it again as well as Shohn’s patience and persistence.

Later on Shohn did some research on biblical numbers and found that 70 refers to the tearing down and rebuilding (e.g., Israel). The number 1000 is one of God’s perfect numbers. Shohn feels that 70 * 2 (him and I) * 1000 = 140,000. At least this is his interpretation of the 140,000 in my dream. Something to think about anyways. Anything is possible.

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