Glass Gloves

Jesus said something about …. well at least it was translated as: Be ye, therefore perfect.

What? You want me to be perfect? Clearly this Jesus cat was delusional if he knew me.

Then there is the ever famous:

Rev 21:8  But for the fearful, and unbelieving, and abominable, and murderers, and fornicators, and sorcerers, and idolaters, and all liars, their part shall be in the lake that burneth with fire and brimstone; which is the second death. 

Wait a second… I get a nice big flashing neon sign that says “ACCESS GRANTED” to the lake of fire that burneth with fire and brimstone…. if I …lie… fornicate…. or am fearful? Come on…. surely idolators and sorcereres, but fearful? And fornicating is so much fun! Gee whiz - and how come he doesn’t mention anything about obeying one’s parents specifically or hint hint hint adulterizing by remarrying - don’t even think about dating my soon to be ex-wife or you’ll BURN IN HELL. Righto - that might win her heart back. I wonder if I should put that in singing telegram and send it to her…. Imagine a guy dressed in a pink tutu with a little funky hat singing…. WIFE come back home cause the BIBLE says you will burn in HELL if you don’t. Yes, I’m saying this tongue in cheek, but don’t we do this to others or have seen others do this?

Jesus is the way, the truth, and the life. If you don’t confess Jesus, you will BURN in HELL - phrase sometimes overheard at a taiwanese barber ship with visiting religious chick whose got it all together.

I imagine Jesus saying something like, I’m not sure if I appreciate your rather creative restatement of what I actually said, but okay.

I just lost the audience. Hold on. I take it back…. it’s okay… just say you’re sorry… after all you’re forgiven, come back to church.

Feel free to rape the horses and pillage the women, and then beg for forgiveness when you’re done.

Really, that whole lake of fire thing… well it’s a metaphor for something and I suspect it isn’t quite what we’ve been seeing on the discovery channel lately. So… I looked it up of course. Your mileage may vary. Do your own homework, as I’m not responsible if you do… lie, fornicate, or commit adultery by remarrying and consequently wind up in a nice lake of fire that burns with sulpher. Don’t say I didn’t warn you.

Anway, I looked up sulphur… it was a purifying agent in ancient times. Now why on earth, would there be fire and sulphur for purification? Is it to eradicate the soul or the sin or both or send them to BURN IN HELL FOREVER AND EVER making what we call a loving God into a terrorist infinitely worse than Osama Bin Laden. What does your heart tell you?

You tell me. I mean, how is it that the lake of fire isn’t considered a metaphor, yet the dragon and beast is in Revelation? This is literal, that is metaliteral, and that is metaphysical and not meant to be taken literal… what? If I may….. let’s quote from the Monty Python’s Life of Bryan… a satirical overview of our own stupidity sometimes about scripture and in this case.. Jesus’ sermon on the mount.

Jesus talking in the distance…..blessed are the meek.. blessed are the….

Crowd Member A: What did he say? Blessed are the cheesemakers?

Crowd Member B: He said blessed are the cheesemakers…

Crowd Member C: Well, that doesn’t mean literally makers of cheese, but rather refers figuratively to all processors of dairy products.

How is this relevant?

Well, I almost got sucked into something last night. I guess it was my time of testing in the wilderness, though it certainly wasn’t 40 days.

What I can say is this… you can believe what I say or you can chalk it up to nonsense, but I’ve got a story that for you that may help to work out a lot of your theological challenges. While I’ve been bored, I’ve started to meet new folks in my town and what not. Anyway, last night I got tempted into some carnal delights. Ruler of this world always trying to bring me down. Danger Wil Robison! Anyway, right on time as the desires of the this contraption I call a body were starting to weigh in… guess what…. butterfly synchronicity motif emerged like crazy. I had written about this awhile back, but I’m talking about it was everywhere….. in a span of an hour - over and over and over. It freaked me out a little.

I thought I would share an alternate viewpoint from another journeyman that I found that seems to help me reconcile many of the events in my life such as what I described in the last paragraph.

There lived in a beautiful garden large numbers of a particular creature who crawled about, eating the vegetation, perceiving themselves on the one hand as being superior to all the other creatures in the garden and yet on the other hand perceiving themselves as lowly, wretched and unworthy of being loved. They had many mythologies and squabbled endlessly about whose mythology was the only right one and this caused many rifts, divisions and schisms between them.

 
One day, a beautiful butterfly came into their presence, soaring in the sunlight, reflecting magnificent rainbow-colours from his wings; so much so that he was seen as the Light of the World. Wherever he went he attracted followers, who marvelled at his magnificence and the wonders he performed in their midst. He spoke in a way they had never heard before. He told them that not only was he the light but that they also were the light; that the wonders he performed, they also would perform – and even greater things - if only they could believe; that he was their brother and that they also were, in reality, beautiful butterflies, capable of soaring in the light and creating magnificent rainbow effects; that they need not concern themselves with all their mythologies and divisions and they would find all that would entirely suffice them was to love the Creator and to love each other as much as they loved themselves.

Many believed what he said but many others scoffed at his words. The scoffers said among themselves, ‘He says he is our brother but it is evident there is nothing remotely similar between him and us; he has only 6 legs and two wings and lives on ambrosia whereas we have many legs, no wings and eat the vegetation. Clearly he is off his head and has no idea what he is talking about.’

Even those who believed him didn’t fully understand him and instead perceived him and worshipped him as a God, saying they were still lowly, wretched and unworthy of being loved and he was high and exalted and eternally beyond anything they could ever be; after all, he had wings of glory on which he soared in the sunlight and only 6 legs and lived on ambrosia, whereas they had many legs and could only crawl about and eat the vegetation in the beautiful garden.

Nevertheless, he told them that if they could imagine the things he told them were like bread and the love that he outpoured upon them was like wine, they could imbibe this as sustenance at a higher level of vibration than the vegetation they believed was their source of life and nourishment. This would then enable them to perceive themselves as they saw him and the higher vibration would transform them, from their own within, into magnificent, soaring butterflies also. He also shared with them another analogy to help them grasp this enlightened perception: that he was as a vine, tended in the garden by the good husbandman and that if they could imagine themselves as being branches in the vine, they could draw their uplifting life energy through him and that this would enable them to find fulfilment of their glorious, radiant potential.

Many did as he said but because the light of their inner discernment was dim, they were only able to follow his guiding as an outward ritual. Only very few were able to perceive the spiritual reality hidden within his stories. Those who did went by themselves, or perhaps with one or two of their closest, most trustworthy friends, into a secret place, away from the clamour of the world around them, wherein they contemplated his words deeply within their hearts and minds - just as he had counselled them - and gave thanks for all the wondrous gifts he had brought into their lives. In the silence of their own within they received the enlightenment he had promised that was sustenance for their souls and this helped them to perceive themselves just he had said they would.

Those who were only able to perceive his words at an outer, ritualistic level began to quarrel amongst themselves as to who was the greatest among them, or whose interpretation of his words was the most accurate and to create ever greater numbers of rules and doctrines about these interpretations, even though the butterfly had plainly said there were only two ‘rules.’ This caused further divisions between them. Some broke away from the group structure that had been established in his name because they said that group no longer truly represented him and his teaching and was full of corruption and self-serving. In time there arose squabbling even within the breakaway groups, causing even further divisions. All these groups and the breakaway groups called themselves the ‘This’ denomination or the ‘That’ denomination and even though their holy writings told them that their Creator had called them by their names, all these breakaway groups had chosen to de-nominate themselves.

All the squabbling over who was right and who was wrong in their understanding of the butterfly’s wisdom caused many of the creatures - who had at first enthusiastically joined the groups set-up in his name because the stories about him seemed so resonant with their hearts and souls – to become disillusioned with the groups and they stopped attending the group meetings.

Some of those who stopped attending decided that the whole story could not be true and went back to eating the vegetation and even any old, decaying matter they found in the garden, embracing any elaborate theories placed before them by those who told them that they had a better idea than the butterfly (or those who claimed to be representing him). This led to more and more confusion in the garden and more and more division among the creatures.

Those who had never believed the butterfly (or the groups who claimed to be representing him) said to those who had left the representative groups, or who moved from one group to another, vainly seeking a more perfect representation of the butterfly, ‘We told you so; it was all too far fetched to be plausible in the first place.’

 
But those few who were able to see past the imagery of the butterfly’s stories, to the truth they contained, and followed his advice to enter alone, or in groups of only 2 or 3, into a secret place and there to attune with him and he would be there in the midst with them, found that his words took on a level of meaning that brought his wisdom into a new dimension of reality for them. This enabled them, in their own inner perception, individually, to enter into a place of being just as he had described. There, they found an inward peace, joy, love and tranquillity and spiritual illumination of the eternal realities, about which the butterfly had spoken, that was far, far beyond anything to be found in the groups who had de-nominated themselves.

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Of course we all know what happens to caterpillars. They eventually stop eating the vegetation, enter alone into a secret place, away from the clamour of the world around them and there, in the solitariness of their own within, recreate themselves in the image and likeness of the Butterfly. Then they emerge and soar magnificently in the sunshine, reflect glorious rainbow colours for all to see and ‘live off ambrosia,’ giving thanks, by their very beauty, to the Creator for the joy and wonder of Life.

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This allegory of the Life of Humanity indicates that the spiritual evolution of mankind is not yet complete, other than for a precious few, who long ago entered into their secret place, just as the Master counselled. However, we are now in the most exciting moment in the history of humanity, when the critical mass is approaching of those who have entered in and are recreating themselves from the Within into the Without into glorious, fully spiritualised, soaring Beings of the Light.

Those who have faithfully followed Jesus of Nazareth through the many denominational church institutions see these realities from the perspective as presented to them by those institutions. These closely formatted and structured forms of words suit those institutions, who maintain a rigid and tightly controlled set of dogmas and doctrines based on Scriptures that have been altered many times, by people with their own agendas, over the millennia since Jesus walked the Earth (for example, reincarnation as a belief system was removed from Church Canon in 553 CE at the Second Council of Constantinople by the then Christian Church authorities. There have been numerous other additions, deletions and amendments before and since, which, in combination, have drastically altered much of the message of Jesus as presented by scripture and the religious denominations established in his name).

Yet Jesus wasn’t rigid in the way he spoke of the things of the Kingdom. He constantly spoke in parables – allegories – which he knew would be interpreted by each individual according to the place each individual was on the path of Eternal Spiritual Progress and that is just as he intended it because that is the nature of parables or allegories and it served his objectives well to teach in this manner. Any individual who is sincere in his commitment to spiritual truth will undergo an evolutionary process in his perception of the meaning of any of these parables during a lifetime. This clearly indicates that to have rigid dogmas and doctrines on any aspect of Truth or the teachings of the Master Jesus is of the intellect, not of the soul perception and is not serviceable to the spiritual evolution of the soul of the individual, from its own within, where it makes its connections with the Creator, in whose image and likeness each soul is created. As St. Paul puts it: ‘Not that we are sufficient of ourselves to think any thing as of ourselves; but our sufficiency is of God; Who also hath made us able ministers of the new testament; not of the letter, but of the spirit: for the letter killeth, but the spirit giveth life. 2Cor 3:5-6.

Jesus was unequivocal about entering alone into the ‘closet’ for communion with the ‘Father’ and that when 2 or 3 were gathered in his (Jesus’) name he would be there in the midst with them. It is in the interest of many religious institutions to promote the perception that congregations should be as large as possible, for pecuniary and doctrinal reasons; but when an individual within such a congregation becomes drawn by the Spirit within to enter alone into his closet and there ponder sincerely and earnestly the mystical dimensions of life, he will begin to receive illumination direct from the Source of All. Such a seeker will experience there a peace and joy not of this Earth and will awaken to eternal realities that will place him in the perception that the congregational churches are no longer able to be the source or channel of his spiritual sustenance because he will have outgrown them. He will also find that they will have no desire to hear of his inward, mystical experiences.

Jesus was also unequivocal that we are (all) the light of the world and that the things he did, we – if only we can believe – will do also, and greater things. He came to remind us of this eternal truth and to demonstrate it, so that we would have a living example of the magnificence of the human spirit to follow and emulate.

It is inevitable that this will happen eventually to us all because that is our fundamental, essential nature, having been created in the image and likeness of the Creator. While some state that we are all god, the truth is more perfectly stated when we say we are all a part of God; that within us is a spark of God’s Consciousness that was given to us at creation. It is only a matter of when, rather than if, that we move back into full awareness of that. We are all at free choice to begin to make that journey at any time, including right NOW.

In writing the story of one’s own experiences one is open to allegations of arrogance, vivid imagination and bias. There will be those amongst the readers of this story who will say this is an affront to Christianity. There are those (and I have already received hundreds of messages to this effect) who will say this has opened their eyes to a greater truth about Jesus of Nazareth, who have been searching for some more realistic, meaningful representation of who he really is than has been portrayed by orthodox religion for centuries. There will be others who cannot decide.

Into whichever category you fall, I ask of you 2 things: 1) Please listen to your heart and your feelings as you read. Your heart and your feelings are your soul speaking, communicating with you. If your heart and soul resonate with this story, you will feel good about it. Some may find that they feel good about some parts of the story and not so good about other parts. 2) Please read the whole story before casting judgment.

You can read the rest of his story under MSN groups - Mysticism 101 - Synchroncity. Good luck. I post it here, because it seems to line up with where I think I’m headed spiritually and many of the observable phenomenon in my own life.

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So in my quest to save my marriage, one aspect that I have fought for a bit though I do feel the prodding is this whole thing of becoming “Holy”. Basically, yeah I’ve gotten prayers answered quite a bit, but when I try calling upon the name, YHWH, I just don’t get that “I know that I know that I know” feeling for some of my prayers.

Example, … I call upon the name of Yahushua to bring my wife home……. right……….now!

Well, where is she? 

Doh! Crazy annoying inabililty to cajole the most High into answering prayer immediately. Well, what seems to be the hold up here… after all His word says that anything we ask He will give in this life when we use His name. Is it a question of spelling? Hmmmmm perhaps, but more likely it has something to do with the fact that in olden times, a person’s name reflected their character / identity. I’m really starting to get the idea that the Jesus we all love and know in modern culture.. you know, that happy fun loving peaceful crowd pleaser always doing magic tricks, is perhaps not the actual Jesus that we think he is. I’ve found numerous scriptures, early church writings, etc. etc. to support the idea, that it wouldn’t take long for the prince of this world to step in and corrupt things. Heck, Paul said it was going to happen, not if, but when, and he indicated the timing would be very soon after he passed. I started looking into the earlier writings and dating various traditions and what not and noted a sort of divergent path. Modern theory is to stay away from gnostic stuff…. gnostic = bad. Yet, YHWH says all the time… my people perish for lack of knowledge, Jesus is recorded to say that the Pharisees bind up the knowledge, etc., etc. I do think this was all part of the grand cosmic plan to make the Good News palatable for heathens like me until we were ready for deeper spiritual things so I understand how we got here.

 As I thought about this some more, I recall something I learned the other day about casting out demons and what not. At one point in Acts, it is written about some pesky devils saying to some Jewish professional exorcists, “We don’t know you”, whereas they knew the Apostles.

Imagine that job….

Some bar……

Some guy trying to convince some girl about whatever merits he may have to get her home….

Guy…. Hey have you heard this cheesy pick up line?

Gal… yah..

Guy… oh…

Gal… so what do you do for a living?

Guy… I’m a professional exorcist…

Gal….  Really? Do tell!…. Bats her eyes  

Guy… well.. I just sort of wave my magic wand if you know what I mean… 

I went too far… sorry.

Anyway, since the demons didn’t know who these men were, they had no authority in Christ to cast them out. I recall that we can approach the throne of grace / mercy with boldness for our petitions once we have access to the throne room. That likely means that the reason the professional exorcists were not known is that the the professional exorcists were never actually seen hanging out with Jesus in the ol’ throne room.

This will be more documentation of yet deeper exploration into what it means to become “holy” / cleansed / etc. I document this path that I plan to take, so that others may understand whether or not attempting to cleanse one’s house from unrighteousness actually brings about increased spiritual phenomenon and hopefully in my case, the restoration of my family / marriage.

I guess right now, I’m pretty much your run of the mill Christian with perhaps a bit of zealousness for knowledge, lots of freak coincidences, and kind of running hither and thather trying to make sense of everything I’m learning. Sort of like trying to come up with a unified thereom in physics perhaps, I guess I’m trying to do the same with regard to my own spirituality, with the long term objective being to demonstrate to the world or my limited audience how to properly save a marriage / family, unblock curses that you aren’t even aware your living under, etc.

I’ve read on sites such as rejoiceministries.org, that part of the process is an internal transformation - that is - becoming more like Jesus. The more I read - the more I’m getting excited. I was previously.. a bit reluctant. I don’t wanna be holy. Bring my wife back dang it!

I’m setting out a plan to clean out the ol’ temple, and hopefully the Spirit of Light will truly come upon me and in 6 months you’ll read about me on the news getting involved in some polgyamist sect or something..well hopefully not, but I guess send up some warning flares if I start to lose connection to what we call reality.

Right now, I’m convinced I’m in the outer court of the temple spirtually speaking. I’m sure sometimes I thought I was in the inner court or holy of holies, but it seems that there is more work to be done from everything I’ve learned recently.

Step 1 - no mo’ meat. Yes I’m serious. I’ve read and read, and am pretty convinced that somehow dining on meat allows spirits of darkness to come upon one’s soul. Take it for what you will. I’ve checked this over and fought it and fought it. I’ve read and disected scriptures to no end, because I really like McDonalds, but I guess they are losing one of the billions served here shortly.

There are other things I’m finding out about as I go… particularly the sort of quantum physical impact the words we speak has on us. Basically, whatever we judge others with…well guess what… it comes back to bite us more than we know. Some call it karma. Same thing for words and thoughts you may have. After all, if we are truly sons of God, that have just forgotten who we are then, it would make sense that we could accidently speak negative energy or whatever into existence through the metaphysical connection that a wife and husband would have.

I’m convinced now that each of the major religions in the world has “part” of the truth, that was perhaps separated by DESIGN to make the quest for the mind like Christ a diligent labor. Throwing away everything you thought that you knew or were taught and starting all over.

What I know so far is that English Bibles are milk. You may say…well it is the lingua franca and such and I may say fair enough. However, there are many passages that talk about a pure language, calling upon the pure name, having your lips purified so as to be able to call upon the name, etc, etc. etc. 

The goal is to have Christ teach me directly… perhaps in a vision… dream maybe.. or if I’m lucky get to hear Him talk one day. I’ve heard about some people saying this has happened to them, but they generally tend to be “cult” leaders, so I tend to doubt the veracity of such claims at this time in my life.

The ol’ John 3:16 escape clause may be fine for babes in Christ, but I have a serious uphill battle here to save my marraige and am going to need some mighty mighty divine help. In the end, we shall see how this next in the series of spiritual experiments plays out.

As you read this, you may think that I’m getting more and more looney tunes - and that’s fine you are entitled to your opinion of course. The Jews thought Jesus was possessed and they killed him for it - nice! Paul also wrote that such stuff would be “foolishness” to babes in Christ of which that is currently, me.

 I certainly hope to avoid that sort of death, but it is written over and over that entering into the “Kingdom” is no easy feat despite the free gift connotations throughout the scriptures. Seems a bit paradoxical eh? That’s why I hope to have enter into the Kingdom somehow and be taught the solution.

 I think what the free gift stuff may actually say, is that …. dude… you’re a child of God…. act like it… you were already a child of God before you were born. Don’t you remember who you were? You are now encased in this animal shell contraption called a body and you need to transcend the world, cultural bias, etc., etc. - get your temple cleaned up so that the ol’ Christ prophet can directly teach you the mysteries of God, and with any grace - perhaps He’ll intercede for my very very broken marriage.

It is interesting… Jesus says that if our wife is out “whoring” around then we are “permitted” to have another mate, yet that we are “forced” to commit adultery at that point. Well no “whoring” around at this point, so I’ve got some time to at least try to become holy and all Luke Skywalker of the mind of Christ.

Paul write about the spiritual connection that our mate has on our life when we have sex with other people beyond our mate. Some part of our spirit seems to join with the other person and affects us the rest of our natural born life.  I just don’t want to see that happen.

I hope I’m not eventually giving up and “forced” into adultery, but we shall see.

Do you think this is nuts? Go read the scriptures man… everything I’m saying is in there if you look and abandon preconceived notions. It is a paradox sometimes. I think it is by design at this point.

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I program a bit on the side. I’m not any good at it, perhaps just enough to be dangerous… but there is a concept that I learned from computer programming that I thought applies to the lesson I learned today.

Recursive programming. …. Let’s say that you have a function or subroutine within a program that can call itself. This helps for things like sorting lists of names or whatever. Let’s say for example that you need to sort a list of names a million lines long. Well you can create a function that splits the list into two pieces and then calls itself to sort the two pieces, then returns the results and combines everything back into one at the end. Clear as mud? Go to wikipedia if you don’t get it.

Well, one thing I have figure out is that God is reaaaaalllly realllly smart, and I’m not. Seems obvious. I wonder if He would use “recursive” programming in what we call our universe, or what I call the grand cosmic soul high school lately.

What if… just what if… the world that we live in, that is, in the physical sense, is actually one big analogy for the inner struggle within our souls to find the reason for our existence and become free of sin and what not and eventually reach soul perfection. 

Jesus was said to say… be perfect… do greater works than me, not everyone who says to me Lord, Lord shall enter in to the kingdom, gnashing of teeth, outer darkness for workers of inquity, etc. I’m sure he was a serious as a heart attack about that. ALL of the writings I find in the new testament, and the old testament seem to confirm this whole idea of not sinning and stuff as best we can. There are things that say well… nothing unclean can enter into heaven, etc. There are various theological ways around this. Purgatory, the great spiritual training ground called the 1000 year reign of Christ, etc.

You’ve got churches that teach this, and teach that. Some teach Sabbath, some teach Sunday, some teach no premarital sex, some teach that fun happy happy gay sex with is okie dokie so long as you were born gay. Clearly, they are not all right, yet the ironic part is that many of them think they are and can’t seem to notice the divine comedy in it all - in that they can’t all be right. Perhaps the scriptures were encoded this way, so that dilligent seekers would be able to be directly taught, that is by the ol High Priest after we reach the state of zen and what not,  whereas what Paul called “babes in Christ”, could do the John 3:16 sprint and feel free to run about acting no better than the rest of the world.

Now a days, it seems like one very prevelant thought is… well Jesus died for your sins.. say the sinner’s prayer and your done baby. Okay, fair enough, maybe just maybe that is good enough despite our Western mindset bastardization of  the word believe. After all, it is a free gift right? Well, I did some checking. It gets pretty deep and I’m not done with this rabbit’s hole yet.

Jesus says to be perfect. I’ll be honest. In a weird sort of way, that scares me, but at the same it is almost as though the scriptures have been purposefully contradictory on many levels because as we try to perceive their understanding with our feeble minds we will go in circles, not unlike what I have been doing for the last two years trying to unravel this big rubik’s cube they call the Bible. Yeah, I know… it takes some scholars 50 years and they still don’t know everything. So I’m smart enough to know that, I won’t ever know it all. Fair enough and I concede that point, but he does tell us to seek ye first the kingdom of God AND all his righteousness, and He’ll add all these other things to us so I’m not going to let that stop my seeking okay.

Here is the problem. You’ll have one guy saying he is being guides by the Holy Spirit.. then another guy saying the same thing yet each can call the other a heretic? Do you see a logic flaw? 

How do we define the Kingdom and what does it reaaaaallly mean to be guided by the Holy Spirit?

To seek whatever that is though… I need to know a couple things. First of all….. where and when does this Kingdom exist? Jesus said that it is within us, yet told the thief on the cross that He would be with him that day in paradise. Did the thief achieve perfection since no unclean thing can enter Heaven? Hrmmm….

Again, what if… just what if… the world that we live in, that is, in the physical sense, is actually one big allegory for the inner struggle within our souls to find the reason for our existence and become free of sin and what not. 

For example, the destruction of the Temple in 70 AD, though a very real historical event, at the same time captures what happens as part of the inner struggle within our souls when we ignore the teachings of Yeshua in the Way? What is “the way” you say? Well, it was a “sect” talked about in Acts of which Paul happened to be a member and Jesus was the grand master flash. I’ve found many references to it in the old testament as well. Basically, it describes in modern parlance how to directly communicate with God through your inner being (i.e., the Kingdom is within you). Modern Christianity always talks about having a relationship, which by definition means… you’ve GOT to hear from God!

Bob, whatcha doing?

Talking to God.

Really?

Umm… nah, just kidding. Flustered look on Bob’s face. 

The Jews, and Judas both looking for a physical manifestation of the Kingdom, yet Jesus indicated that it was within. Modern day Christianity looking for a physical return of Jesus - the same thing the Jews were looking for, just stated in a different way. He who has eyes to see, let him see Jesus was always saying. He spoke parables to the masses, then went and explained it to the apostles in private, and often they…. still didn’t get it after hanging out with the master for years…what’s up with that? Perhaps spiritual eyes and ears are needed to understand, which probably didn’t quite develop until after Peter denied Christ and cried for a few days, Paul got blinded then had his sight restored by Ananieas (however you spell that), and maybe I’ll get hit by a bus / divorced or something and float out of my body and come back maybe.

It gets really deep here. What if there is to be a physical return of the Messiah or the Kingdom - perhaps some sort of situation where we almost nuke ourselves into oblivion or whatever - followed by the realization of man as a whole that yeah, there’s a God and some sort of Heaven on Earth all of us living in a village thing going,but that physical reality of us almost nuking ourselves into oblivion is also just another  allegory for that which occurs within our souls. That is … the fall… before resurrection… nuking ourselves into oblivion is just allegory for what happens to a person’s soul before they decide to wake up and go back towards the light? What if we are all actually prodigal sons and daughters of God, Jesus taught us how to get back to the light and what not?

Yes, I have found evidence of the possiblity of “reincarnation” in the scriptures. Yup. I said it. Then there is evidence against it. I suspect that it is there by design, so that the actual truths can be taught to us by the one teacher, directly, and not by men. It seems to say over and over, put your trust not in men when it comes to this kind of stuff.

A God who by definition is infinite, means that.. just possibly, there are an infinite number of universes and heck we could have done this a trillion times already and still not gotten it right and for that matter would we even know that this was our trillion and first time of running through the ol’ soul perfection incubator?

I know I’m onto something here. Perhaps, once we figure out how to build star ships or portable intergalactic teleporters and stuff, that will be yet another allegory for our desires to make it to “Heaven”, that is actually available right now within us according to Jesus.

I haven’t quite got all of this worked out, but let’s just say that I’m starting to read the scriptures on multiple levels now… spiritual, historical / physical, moral / ethical, etc. There is a lot more depth still.

In Genesis, it talks about the woman being sent along as a helper for the man - yet she was taken from the man’s inside. The “Ruach” or spirit in Hebrew was feminine as I understand it. Jesus said that a helper would be sent along for Pentecost. Seen any correlation?

So if there is any actual validity to some of this stuff I’m uncovering about the occasional reincaration here and there, it would make total sense as to why I have such a fascination for cooking lately. I was actually related to Betty Crocker in a former life! Maybe not.

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I walk into the convenience store today to get a nice ice cold beverage. I see Dee, a muscular african-american woman. I don’t know her first name, but I know her name is Dee. I wonder.. what is that short for? I like Dee. She is always happy. She cusses quite violently sometimes (MF this, and MF that),  but somehow her always cheerful disposition seems to offset that aspect of her personality. I put my the wares up on the counter and close the transaction. She says.. thank you kindly. What is it about Dee? I find myself curiously attracted to her in not an erotic sort of way, but just her spirit I guess. That cheerful disposition complete with lots of curse words.

I open my plastic Dr. Pepper bottle with a yellow twist top to uncover a series of numbers and letters. 1 in 6 Wins! Maybe, this
will be my miracle. What will I do if I win though and she divorces me? Will I cash in before or should I delay it until after the divorce? After all, should she have rights to this winning top since she is the ONE who wants to leave…..  perhaps this will be the opening thought for my next book. A carefully interwoven plot line that walks backwards through my story of betrayal, murder, rape, incest, violence, multiple children’s lives, a Bible, 4 calves, a goat, a caught ostritch (o boy I’ve over done it again) and a little boy asking his mom why we are here.

I need to learn how to write first I guess.

Anyway, so today I was listening to a broadcast about prophetic annointing and stuff like that. I find it curious. The site offers such lovely things as “pomegrante” annointing oil, “prophetic” worship CDs, teaching, and so forth. Eat the orange and toss out the rind I guess. I do recall reading somewhere once that the oil did have a purpose though. Apparently, annointing one’s self in oil enhances one’s prophetic or as we call them now a days, psychic gifts, particularly for things like astral projection.

I bought one of their “prophetic” teaching mp3s. I find myself irrestistably drawn in by the “higher” faculties our minds are touted to possess and trying to learn all I can learn about spiritual warfare and such to get rid of these pesky demons, minions, and ministers - some more sinister than minsister attacking my family.

Anyway, as I listened to the teaching it wasn’t quite as “charimatic” as some of the groups that are out there, but did seem to reveal a number of things in the New Testament that I never quite “got” from a spiritual perspective. I had often looked at it purely from a historical and doctrine perspective. There are much deeper things being said still.

Here are my notes:

Jesus sitting in a boat….sleeping…… until….. the guys call out to Him. He awakens and SPEAKS peace to the storm. When He is done, He says something like.. “nice faith losers” in modern parlance. 

Curious… how did He sleep through the storm. Answer.. perhaps He lived in the spirit world and thus was at peace through the storms. He is challenging us to do the same. I have my own storm I guess.. my own marriage is all but dead now.  

Does God test us?

From somewhere in the OT - The prophet asked the King to strike the ground with arrows to win the battle. The King only struck 3 times. Since the prophet only struck 3 times and not 5 or 6, it was determined that he would win 3 small battles, but not the war. Israel gets beaten down because of this.

What is the lesson here?

Leaders without passion cost everyone who follows.

John the Baptist the greatest prophet of them all, though no records of visions, healings, etc.

John came to the forefront after 400 years of absolute silence from Heaven, in the most spiritually barren time in history, but he had perhaps the most significant job in history up to that time. Jesus said that John was the greatest man born of woman, yet those who are least in the Kingdom are greater than John. This has always puzzled me.

The guy says.. if you think that He was referring to just to Heaven that our Western minds think of you missed the point.

John went baptizing in water so He could find the Messiah!

The guy continues imagine John saying as he is baptizing folks ….. Nope you’re not Him, nope your not Him. John refers to the Messiah’s baptism…. the Messiah is going to baptize you in God Himself. There was nothing that would attract anyone to Jesus - He was reportedly noone special from an appearance perspective. John then gets some divine revelation - look over there - behold - the lamb of God who takes away the sin of the world as he points to Jesus.

John says - I need to be baptized by you. It was the one thing that John lacked apparently - baptism of the Spirit? Jesus is … well let’s do this properly so that ALL righteousness may be fulfilled.

Jesus says that John is the greatest born of woman.

John is the greatest on this side of the river, that is the Jordan… you know crossing over and stuff into the promised land.

That side of the river has access to more than John ever had access to though and so do we!

Jesus is trying to help John, finish well.

The guys says.. everyone can be all Christian style during the easy times, but for the rough times how do we get through? We feed our hearts on what God is doing, not what He hasn’t done! Well, that rings true for me. He seems to be working hard core on many other aspects of my relationships. I need faith and trust still that He is working on my wife’s heart.

The guy continues… Jesus did not come to show us what God could do. He came to illustrate what one man could do if He completely yielded to God. I wonder.. have I really yielded and surrendered completely?

What happend to ol’ John though after all that hard work? He got stuck in prison. Who did he prepare the way for? The one who releases  prisoners from prison and he gets stuck in prison and his head lopped off.

Jesus is reported to say something like Blessed is He who is not offended in me.

The report of John the Baptist dying - being killed… soon after Jesus met up with him. When Jesus learned of it, He withdrew to His place of prayer. He departed to a deserted place.

Verse 22, immediately goes up to the mountain to pray. Jesus was tempted in all points that we are… as soon as He hears about John’s death the one you love the most, and the Word never came from Heaven.. to release John…. Why? Jesus went to get alone with the Father.

After this they brought to Him all that were sick. Disappointment can not be allowed to just hang there. It must be dealt with. I guess Jesus dealt with it by healing a bunch of folks after the fact. That’s what I’ve been trying to do, minus the miracle healings. Reminds me of another principle I learned recently…. love that is given out is returned… we are to give.

The guy says…Jesus messed up every funeral He attended.

We have our modern theology built around the inactivity instead of the activity of God. He has so thoroughly put us in charge that we have been given the responsbility to decide what  happens. In the absence of truth, lies prosper and thus the New Age movement… the power of God seems to be demonstrated outside of the church now a days. Medical miracles and what not.

We now say that the apostolic age is over, thus prophecy and miracles largely denied. We have deceived ourselves and given up that aspect of our faith, when that is what we were supposed to be doing all along.

To put this into contemporary terms, we may use an excuse not to help the poor:

The poor will always be with us so let’s not help the poor.

He then goes into the concept of “false humility (25 hits)“. This is a new one for me. Sort of… hey look at me fall on a sword. I added the concept to one of my other sites I just started.

Jesus revealed that the Kingdom of God is within you. Seems to agree with quantum mechanics at least as much as I know about it at this juncture.

He says.. we now say, that ”God works in mysterious ways”, which is our cop out way of saying… God is Evil! When we tell someone that God is good, that is when we get flack.

Jesus was illustrating what a man could do when rightly related with God.

If you pray against disease or for miracles now a days you’re considered a nut case. He goes on to describe various healings, resurrections, etc. He explains that he has no idea why some cancer patients are healed when prayed for and others are not. Makes me think… why are some marriages restored and some not?

He continues ..the whole mystery of the old testament was to lead you to Jesus.

For example, Job… the answer was Jesus. If you didn’t read Job and get pointed to Jesus, you missed it he says.

A seed is to fall into the ground and die to give new life. I think.. hmm is that what must happen to my marriage?

Psalm 6, we receive a 7 fold annointing for what is lost.

If it dies, request a 7 fold annointing…… Mothers Against Drunk Drivers, Red Cross, etc. etc. Tons of examples of this. I think of another person at another marriage restoration ministry. She has been standing for her marriage since 1992 or 1993. I think.. geez.. is that insane.. no… look how many people she has helped restore marriages, yet her own has not yet been restored.  Is that what will happen to me? I’m not that strong dang it. I want my wife and family back together back dang it.

He goes on to talk about David. David had many of his first victories in private. Fighting lions, tigers, and bears. Then he comes up to fight this goliath guy… no worries… God has my back. Where did he get that confidence? With his private victories as a shepard. … God had to wait until he was ready for a public victory to use him. Where he had enough trust and spiritual discernment to pull it off.

The guy continues .. one of our failings as Christians is to not understand divine justice in our lives. God HAS to deliver justice - He would prefer to deliver mercy because mercy triumphs over justice every time, but we seem to prefer justice now a days.
 

Divine justice as applied to the king. The king is responsible to God. Reminds me of another principle,  David’s justice was applied to himself (23 hits) in the measure that he distributed it. Jesus said the same thing.

… a seed falls into the ground and dies to produce… a flower (22 hits)!

Every loss though… that’s not the end of the story..

Your area of greatest of loss is an invitation to experience the greatest victory…
 

As I was getting to the end of the broadcast he started speaking about deaths in a family, other of life’s troubles, and then he just had to go to troubled marriages. It touched my heart I guess. I felt a sinking feeling in my stomach. Why did he have to go there? For a few seconds as he was talking about this… I sort of started thinking .. dang it. I guess I may have to let my marriage go, but at least I may be able to help others stop this from happening - perhaps this is my 7 fold annointment eh? As I was thinking this, I heard a very high pitched sound in my head.. it is something that my ears have done from time to time for no apparent reason. It was sort of that same sound after shooting a large caliber weapon without ear protection.

I was thinking about this whole annointing thing and once again my muscles started to spasm uncontrollably all over my body.. extreme tension.. I tried to relax, but nothing doing. This goes on for about two minutes… the ringing is still in my ears, and then the power goes out in the building… the generator clicks over almost instantly. I look over at my clock on my phone as the power goes out… it says 4:44 (30 hits). I’m thinking great… another multiple of 11 thing that I’m probably making up as I’m going along. I get ummm…..directed to Acts 4…

Another street minister buddy calls me up. He needs help with his web site (19 hits).  Yet another mentor that God has put into my life. I had a nice long conversation with him. He shares many insights that he has learned. I love learning from folks.. picking up their insights that would have taken me 30 years of experience to understand. He has wisdom. I listen attentively. Hopefully there isn’t any rhind to throw out after I eat this orange.

He shares with me… respect all people no matter their faith. I think Paul said the same thing. Seems like Jesus did to. Peter had a nice vision about it including a few lizards to boot.

If you have something to offer them that they can take that will make their life better then it will draw them in. We go over the Muslim expression Aslelamlakah.. yeah I can’t spell it, but it means something to the effect that if you respect me.. I respect you. It is interesting to note the different approaches that different people take. Different members of the Body I suppose. His definitely isn’t fire and brimstone.. its more about relationship building. Others I have dealt with have a firmer hand for street folks. I guess it is situational.

He continues though… says that the devil will take away what we love the most. I’m thinking to myself. Well that makes sense. No wonder he’s after my wife and family so much then.

He goes on… if you accept that you she will no longer be with you… just accept that possibilty… then… the devil has no more power. Accept it. It makes sense. Reminds me of something Jesus said about anyone not willing to give up family, etc. was not worthy to be His disciple. It all makes sense now. The reason being that.. the devil will attack those things and use them against you I think to myself.

He continues… God gives us the best right? Not just what we need? In ministry he says… it is day by day. He provides daily. He says don’t be frivolous with His money, but ask for help and He will provide. He says that it happens every day for him in his street ministry. Reminds me of the motorcycle tribe of Judah thing I wrote about awhile back (26 hits). He provides. Really and truly… freaking weird, wild, and all crazy style just in time delivery of money, or whatever is needed for a man and his ministry. It has happened to me a bunch. So.. we give to others our best. Another street minister introduced me to this concept about a week ago. My friend continues… I see a homeless guy who is hungry. I buy him not just a hamburger. I love him. I ask him if he wants ice cream too after his meal is finished. If it looks like he is just looking for a hit.. well then I don’t give him money, but instead offer to take him to a restaurant.

He continues… he admits…gay people bug me sometimes. I don’t like what they do… but I love them. I guess I know the feeling. I recall meeting the “coolest” gay guy I had ever met one time. He was gay, not flamboyant… just gay. Didn’t know why… but was matter of factly about it, that it was something he struggled with, but he doesn’t like to make people uncomfortable. I think of some of my friends who had “come out of the closet”, yet we knew all along…

He continues…You don’t have to like what someone does to love them. Makes sense. He recounts a story of his about a gay man with aids that he helped. He told the man… “I love you and so does God”. The man seemed to respect the honesty, and said “noone has ever told me that”. People only tell me that when they want something.

He continues to share other nuggets with me. Sheer wisdom. I’m trying to soak up as much as I can. Steve shows up. Steve….. hey what’s going on buddy? “I’m sorry man, I forgot your name”. That’s okay… Steve says.. well I got out of jail after being in there for 24 days. I’m eye balling Steve…. his eyes are big. He has put on some weight, but my gut tells me that he is looking for a hit. He asks for money. I was trained to discern when they are looking for a hit, but didn’t matter anyway as I was out of cash. My street minister buddy offers $10. Steve is elated! I’m still eye balling Steve though. His eyes are huge. He just got off of a hit and is looking for another. Dang it Steve. Fighting forces that I have no idea about… mercy.

Steve continues on with his $10 into the sunset.

My minister buddy and I continue. He tells more stories about divine orchestration in his life to help spread the kingdom. Simply amazing stories. Adventure. I don’t want adventure… I want my wife back! I love the stories though. Working for God is so entertaining… it is never boring it seems. I want more, but I want my wife back. An interesting dichotamy I guess. Peter had a wife - why can’t I have my wife back. Focus on what God is doing, not what He’s not doing!

Steve is out of jail after 24 days… what message is that to me? Seems to tie into the broadcast I listened to earlier about John the baptist, and my friend who had just gotten out of prison.

Anyway, he continues….with other nuggets. I asked him about some of these experiences I have been having? I said am I going crazy or is this normal? He says… no no… it’s normal… that’s what it is like. He says this bit of wisdom though… some are for you in private… and some are for you to share.

The last bit of wisdom he shares is this… sometimes we can be so into God… that God can’t use us anymore. That hit home. That is pretty much a lot of what ran my wife off. Sinking feeling. Did I become so zealous that He can’t use me anymore I wonder… I think about this all the way home. I’m so obsessive compulsive about many things I do. Is it possible to become so obsessed with God, that even He needs a break or some “space” I wonder?

Paul never seemed to stop though… whaddya mean your wife is sick and you need some time off? You loser.. I don’t have time for you! I’m no Paul though.

I get home. I fire up my other computer. As it comes up… I notice this passage from another ministry (23 hits) ….from Isaiah 61:1 (in KJV 1611 baby!):