Meditation is the coolest thing since sliced bread.
Yeah, so I’ve been practicing meditation to further my prayer / spiritual life. The first time I tried it on my own - nothing doing. I have discovered that there are various training videos available on youtube which greatly accelerate the process of learning to meditate. This is all part of my grand spiritual exploration. I’ve read and read about how to do it, but nothing quite like a video to really make a 1000 words more clear. In addition, I purchased a couple of hypnosis tracks. These are to better help me with that whole controlling the mind / tongue thing and hopefully not do or say anything stupid while around the PSTBEW or anyone else for that matter. Making the thoughts become like the mind of Christ - the tongue controlled as well.
Any hoo, as I was meditating… focused on the breath, etc… thoughts became empty…. and then my body basically became numb. A couple of fluttering thoughts here and there, but they quickly went away. The audio proceeds and eventually even the audio fades into the background. I’m completely zoned out. Memories of what was said in the track become a distant memory. As though I’m looking back on my childhood or perhaps trying to recall a dream in the morning. It is going along. I’m out. Elvis has left the building. As the tape proceeds eventually it stops. This particular set was for training on out of the body experiences and what not - therefore it did not slowly bring me back to a fully aware state - but rather was designed to keep me on the edge between sleep and consciouness. That state of mind where I had previously written about having a few out of body type experiences before. Given the design of the track and the time - it was day - I guess it sort of startled me a bit. A bit startled. Here I am, trying to figure out how to animate my arms again. I’m looking at my hand and I’m thinking.. I want to move my hand, but it won’t move. My body is completely stationary with the exception of eye movements apparently. I hesitate.
Move hand dang it. Move. It won’t move. Why won’t my hand move? Starting to get frustrated I wonder, if this is some sort of temporary paralysis. Will it be permanent? My mind panics a bit. Annoying meditation permanent paralysis trickster tape always freezing up my motor control. Okay, well surely its not permanent - yet the thought crosses my mind. If somehow I become paralyzed from listening to this stupid tape then that would be comical yet sad. As comical as walking into an open man hole and dying to paraphrase brook shields I think.
Finally, motor control returns to my arms and I pick up my hand relieved that I’m not permanently immobile due to experimenting with meditation. That would suck.
Anyway, this has helped me tremendously in my prayer life and for controlling that ol’ emotional roller coaster. Check it out if you are in a roller coaster yourself and are unsure of how to control the emotions or perhaps just want a bit of peace.
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